verbal diarrhoea

sanctity of life

2007-03-26T13:40:00.000+08:00

i will never understand why people just can't fight to live on.

of course if you just lost your job because you're underaged (not considering the fact that you're pregnant). Adding on, has parents who sold your organs to the mafia to pay for their gambling debts right after stealing your entire pay to go (you guessed it) gambling. yeah, if thats the case, then well, i don't really have a choice but to forgive you for wanting to end your life. but what about those who suffer nothing close to that? yes, you're suffering. i know you are. but does it really take death to end it all?

"so you rather have me suffering than to let me find peace?"

tell me. how do you expect me to answer that? seriously.

me: "if finding peace means you die, then yes."

hey, i'm sorry i can't give you my best wishes for what you're going to do. i'm sorry i cannot support you in your final transition. truly, i am. but i simply cannot stay and watch someone die without doing something, anything at all to help. but know this, i pray that you have a better day, everyday.

i just hope that someone will succeed in taking you out of the dark because i'm clearly failing. god bless the person who can.

a moment of emo-ness

2007-02-17T02:41:00.000+08:00

i've always prided myself on being strong. i've always been proud of my ability to speak well, to convey my feelings as straightforwardly as intended. thus, it amazes me your ability to make me so tongue-tied. it amazes me still that even after a year, i still think you're hot. i wont lie. i'm fickle. my taste change as quickly as POS changes her prey (and trust me, she does it quickly). and well, i just wanted to say thanks for well, being hot. =D

lafoo, the nyeh nyeh izeen

p/s its relieving to know you're only human and somehow, (irritatingly,) it makes you hotter. haha. ^_^

klutz personified

2006-12-27T00:26:00.000+08:00

klutz -noun Slang.
1. a clumsy, awkward person.
2. a stupid or foolish person; blockhead.
3. izeen

yes, i think it would be quite right to officially announce the fact that im a klutz proven by the fact that i now have two swollen toes and a throbbing leg. care to know more about my idiocy? then carry on reading...

WARNING: EXTREME IDIOCY. PLEASE DO NOT READ IF YOU ARE ALLERGIC OR DO NOT WISH TO KILL BRAIN CELLS (since most of you probably dont have enough to begin with. ^_^ see? im nice. i warn you first.)

yesterday night (or rather, morning since it was about 2am), i was just finishing up with my daily stretches and decided to try something new. you know that stupid exercise where you put your hands straight in front of you and then kick up to hit your hands? well, yeah, that.

i was just about finished with practicing the dance i learned while in jakarta (that requires a whole lot of butt-shaking and would leave you with one hell of a sore in your legs the next day) and weight-lifting. put down weights then started on that new exercise.

(please note continuous presence of TWO 5KG dumb-bells on floor) oh yeah, before anything, please also note that to actually kick your hands, you need a whole lot of momentum so you need to kick really hard to get the swing.

kicking. leg swinging. BANG. mother effing hell. the moment my toes made contact with the dumb-bells, i thought my soul just left my body. so now, i have two swollen toes, a throbbing leg and im limping like a moron. ^_^ yup, today is a nice day.

bored la vie

2006-12-24T02:26:00.000+08:00

just to prove that im really bored albeit lazy... here's succumbing to khad's wishes and doing the stupid quiz she got off friendster. tsk tsk. my dear, im a good girl. of course i'll get a low score. =DDD

Bored? Nothing better to do? Then
here's the game: Count off all the
things in each group you've done,
and add up the totals to find out how
wild you are!:)

1. smoked.
2. consumed alcohol.
3. slept in the same bed with someone
of the
opposite sex.
4. slept in the same bed with someone
of the
same sex.
5. kissed someone of the same sex.
6. had sex.
7. had someone in your room other than
family.
8. watched porn.
9. bought porn.
10. done drugs.
TOTAL: 7

1. taken painkillers
2. taken someone else's prescription
medicine.
3. lied to your parents.
4. lied to a friend.
5. snuck out of the house.
6. done something illegal.
7. cut yourself.
8. hurt someone.
9. wished someone to die.
10. seen someone die.
TOTAL: 9

1. missed curfew.
2. stayed out all night.
3. eaten a carton of ice cream by
yourself.
4. been to a therapist.
5. been to rehab.
6. dyed your hair.
7. received a ticket.
8. been in an accident.
9. been to a club.
10. been to a bar.
TOTAL: 6

1. been to a wild party.
2. seen the Mardi Gras.
3. drank more than four beers in a
night.
4. had a spring break in Florida.
5. sniffed anything.
6. wore black nail polish.
7. wore arm bands.
8. wore t-shirts with band names.
9. listened to rap.
10. own a 50 Cent CD.
TOTAL: 6

1. dressed gothic.
2. dressed prep.
3. dressed punk.
4. dressed grunge.
5. stole something.
6. been too drunk to remember anything.
7. blacked out.
8. fainted.
9. had a crush on a neighbor.
10. had someone sneak into your room.
TOTAL: 8

1. snuck into someone else's room.
2. had a crush on your best friend.
3. been to a concert.
4. dry-humped someone.
5. been called a slutt.
6. called someone a slutt.
7. installed speakers in your car.
8. broken a mirror.
9. showered at someone of the opposites sex's house.
10. brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush.
TOTAL: 8

1. consider/considered Ludacris your favorite rapper.
2. seen an R-rated movie in theater.
3. cruised the mall.
4. skipped school.
5. had surgery.
6. had an injury.
7. gone to court.
8. walked out of a restaraunt without paying.
9. caught something on fire.
10. lied about your age.
TOTAL: 7

1. owned/rented an apartment.
2. broke the law in the police's presence.
3. cheated with someone.
4. got in trouble with the police.
5. talked to a stranger.
6. hugged a stranger.
7. kissed a stranger.
8. rode in the car with a stranger.
9. been harrassed.
10. been verbally harrassed.
TOTAL: 7

1. met face-to-face with someone you met online.
2. stayed online for 12 hours straight.
3. talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight.
4. watched TV for 12 hours straight.
5. been to a fair.
6. been called a bad influence.
7. drink and drive.
8. prank-called someone.
9. laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex.
10. cheated on a test.
TOTAL: 9

fine. thats a 67/90 -____-" its a stupid test. what does injuries have anything to do with being wild anyway? sheesh. khad, this does not prove anything.

ps retardedness

2006-12-24T01:20:00.000+08:00

ps. if you want to be linked, link me then tag me.

pps. tag a couple of times because i have compulsive taggers on my tagboard.

ppps. this is fun.

pppps. umairah, tarzan is so not hot. -___-"

ppppps. the new skin is ugly. there's something missing.

pppppps. ME!

ppppppps. fine, i'll stop this rubbish. -__-"

reuniting psychos

2006-12-24T00:19:00.000+08:00

=D just reached home after the class gathering (sec 1/2 class) where i had quite a cool time i guess. as usual, gatherings like this always involves us walking around aimlessly but with lots of retarded reminiscing (aka evil stories about teachers/bitches/etc) in between. lmao.

quick summary of what i did today.
- wake up earlier than expected thanks to insomnia.
- did the whole 2b vs 4e1 gathering thingy again.
- found out that 2b gathering NOT cancelled and they're meeting at 1 at orchard mrt station.
(that was at 12.30 fyi, it takes an hour from my house to town and i havent even gotten ready yet. yes, farhan, that was plain evil.)
- rushed like mad, ran like mad only to find out im not the latest. wtf? waste my effort running.
- waited like idiots.

random thought: wth? its playing that stupid graduation song by vitamin c on radio. sheesh. -__-" someone up there really dont like me.

continued...
- went to play pool at cineleisure

truthfully, im too lazy to even write the summary of the class gathering coz we did a lot of mindless wandering though it was kinda fun. i mean, i havent seen most of these people for at least a year and most of them, i dont even keep in contact with. in fact, some of them, i dont even remember that we used to be classmates! so this gathering was good.

i'll insert pictures here when i receive it from danilah. ^_^ btw, farhan, for gods sake, you look okay ledy alright. continue losing weight and you'll look waaaaay skinny. buff is good. =)

and on a very important matter (that has nothing to do with the class gathering)... Khad, stop showing off your skinny thighs. sheesh. btw people, if you want to know how to get skinny thighs, get your knee injured so you need to undergo an operation then have to wear a brace like khad and do evil exercises. khad can gurantee that it works. =DDD

and umairah, stop blaming me for your hornyness. sheeesh. and you're the one with bad taste. you like tarzan for effing sake.

-___-" lafoo people. i'll do a better entry when i have pictures. as consolation, i've changed the blogskin because umairah and khad insists that my blog (and el-jay, and friendster and multiply and ...) is too narcissistic.

i still insist that i have a healthy obsession with myself. boo boo.

whoring myself. ^_^

2006-12-19T02:24:00.001+08:00

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blogskin

2006-12-17T06:52:00.000+08:00

my god, trying to change the skin for a blog almost killed me but i held strong and finally, success (well kinda, considering the fact that its ugly). lmfao. i'll go change it later when i get onto the other com with all my personal blogskins (which can be seen from my livejournal page).

niwach, congratulations to myself for finally winning against retarded blogspot. ^_^ the only problem now is deciding whether i want to use livejournal or blogspot. hmmmm... tough choice. oh well, watever it is, i deserve sleep. umairah pang seh-ed me ages ago.

i have sweet friends, dont i? -______-"

blogspot virgin!

2006-12-17T02:19:00.000+08:00

i think the title says it all. i finally manage to post something because i fixed my computer. ^-^ tell me i'm brilliant! muahahhaha. now i just have to change the ugly skin of this journal then im all set to move from livejournal to here but i'm going to miss livejournal too much... hmmmm. i think i'm just going to maintain both journals.

niwach, since im new here, i should introduce myself.

hey, Nurfa'izeen Kamat here, izeen kay for short. Most people know me as izeen or oshyn so any other names would probably be greeted with a HUH? face. im not your regular girl next door. i bite and steal your boyfriends (or so a lot of people seem to believe). simply said, the world needs to get a whole lot more exciting to accommodate me. and fast.

very pleased to meet you. lafoo bitches.